Monday, April 23, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Life is always a contradiction. Particularly for someone like me, whose mind is always on overdrive. Always thinking, always pondering, always over analyzing.
I think what I need in my life right now is less materialism but a whole lot more beauty.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Anyway, I figured I'd update a little bit. Here's a list, because they're easier to write than coherent paragraphs.
1. I've signed a lease on a place for the new academic year and I am beyond excited! There were initial plans to live with housemates, certainly the more economical option. But I feel so lucky to be getting a place of my own like I've always wanted. Growing up, you had to mould yourself to fit around the family members you live with. And in the future you'd have to mould yourself to fit around the partner/husband/children you live with. I feel like there should be a point in time when you get a space all to yourself. So that you can wake up in the middle of the night and bake cookies with music blasting and not worry about waking anyone else up. So that you can sit by the window and sip your tea and read your book and just enjoy the peace and solitude. I'm also super lucky to have found a place that is so ME. It's bright and open and cheerful and I saw myself living there the moment I walked in. I won't say anymore incase the roof falls in over the summer because I'm a jinx like that. Lol.
Lol evidently my idea of a perfect home is quite different from most people's. Just give me some light, a background of white and a whole lot of tiny personal touches.
2. After so many months of living here and enduring freaking Yo Sushi which is NOT sushi, I finally found an amazing Japanese restaurant that makes me salivate at the thought. I can eat Japanese all day, every day.
3. I'm certainly working a lot harder this semester than I was in the last. Nothing much to say there except check out my "workstation". Word open on my laptop, journals on the iPad, textbooks and lecture notes. Lol. I never thought essays would ever be such hard work for me.
4. I'm pleased to announce that I am slowly but surely building up a new library on Kindle for iPad. I know I'm a betrayal to book lovers everywhere, but I've always said that one of my life goals is to simplify my life so much that I can fit everything I need into one suitcase. I need my books. And if I have to sacrifice the scent of old paper and the flick of pages for the convenience of having my whole library with me everywhere I go, so be it. And anyway, the iPad has its own beauty.
Currently making my way through Jodi Picoult's lesser known titles (Picture Perfect, Second Glance, The Tenth Circle). Also read Sophie Kinsella's latest, I love her, her writing is my guilty pleasure. Not to mention Diary of an On-Call Girl, the latest addition to my mobile library. I'm certainly sticking to my new year's resolution and rediscovering my love for books.:)
5. Finally, I'm looking forward to spring and Easter and the beautiful warmer months that will be filled with wonderful vacations. Must remember to post travel photos because that is something I definitely want to look back on!
Have a great day everybody. And those of you back home, I miss you all everyday and I can't wait to be back where I belong, 3 more months!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
1. Were you named after anyone?
2. Do you like your own handwriting?
3. What would your superpower be if you could choose one?
Teleportation. My biggest problems in life have always been that I'm too far away from the ones I love or simply can't get to them fast enough.
4. Are you an optimist or pessimist?
Optimist usually. I like to hope for the best but expect the worst.
5. What do you collect?
6. What movie would your friends be surprised that you like?
Can't think of one.
7. What are your favorite smells?
The combination of lavender and jasmine, because that's what my fresh laundry smells like. Chocolate chip cookies. The cologne on this green t-shirt I wear to sleep every night.:)
8. Coffee or tea?
Tea by a long shot.
9. Wine or beer?
10. What is the best thing you've ever eaten? (Where?)
Outside dining-wise, it's a tie between banana leaf rice at Devi's, Bangsar (KL) and pumkin risotto at Zizzi (London, Cardiff). But my mom's cooking will always have top spot in my heart.:)
11. Mac or PC?
Hah! Mac, duh! Apple evangelist always!
12. What are you listening to right now?
Empty Apartment, Yellowcard.
13. What career would you pursue in another life?
Make-up artist. Artist.
14. What sound or noise do you love?
The sound of my dogs' paws as they run. I can hear them before I even see them and once I hear that sound, I know it won't be long before I see their happy furry faces.:)
15. What sound or noise do you hate?
Nails against a chalkboard. Taylor Swift (usually).
16. Mountains or beach?
Beach! Oh my god BEACH!!
17. Cook or bake?
I like baking, but cooking is just calming on a whole different level. It takes me back to the hours spent in the kitchen with my mom. When I cook, it smells like home.. and then it tastes like home. These days I come home from stressful exams, pull back my hair and get to chopping. I'm forever grateful that my mom taught me all these things, it has made all the difference in my life.
18. Do you go to restaurants and movies by yourself?
Restaurants yes but movies no. When I watch a movie by myself I like to cuddle up under my duvet with my stuffed giraffe.:)
19. What is your favorite fairy tale or childhood story?
The Giant Turnip. It's a story about an old man who planted a turnip which grew to be ENORMOUS. He pulled and pulled but couldn't pull it out, so he called his wife over. The old lady pulled the old man who pulled the turnip but they pulled and pulled but couldn't pull it out, so they called their granddaughter over. It goes on and on until the cat pulls the dog who pulls the.... well you get the gist. In the end they got the turnip out and made turnip soup for the whole village!
There is no point to this story but I loved that book so much I stole it from a library.
20. What would you tell the 13 year old you?
Stop stressing, stop pushing yourself so hard, stop trying to succeed in ways people tell you you should. Because you work a little differently from others, and when you start trusting yourself, that's when things will start working out for you.
I enjoyed playing 20 questions. I'd enjoy reading your answers, too.:)
Monday, January 30, 2012
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All I have to do is close my eyes and I can feel your arms around me, your body pressed against me, your face in my hair, breathing in, and out. They say cells have memory. Every cell in my body remembers the warmth of your touch. And they brought it all back now, as the winds howl outside my window, and I lie here, missing you, missing you, missing you.
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I used to wonder why so many people end up completely settled in life without having achieved their dreams. Now, lying here watching you sleep, I just want to throw all my big dreams out the window and come home to you. Maybe they didn't give up on their dreams, as I initially thought. Maybe they found other dreams. Dreams as beautiful as this crazy, inescapable, all consuming love we share.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
21 years old and I'm finally picking this up. I guess it's never too late to learn. It's time to start building walls, it's time to let go.
2011 was also a great year for vacations. I had a good 5 months off from studying, the longest break I've ever had! Amazing times with the family in Langkawi, the best friends in Penang and the person I love in Malacca. It was all about fun and adventure and relaxation and giggling over everything and being a little less sensible for a couple of days. I got a taste for it and now I whine for a vacation every chance I get! Once again, it comes down to love and being loved. I'm so grateful for the amazing people in my life who give me such beautiful memories.
Finally, 2011 was a year of change. I packed my bags and flew 14 hours to a country I've never set foot in. It wasn't easy, I was tossed into a very challenging university environment with much higher standards than I was accustomed to. All while trying to get a routine down pat so that I wouldn't find myself without food or clean clothes. When you live alone, NOBODY takes care of these things for you no matter how busy and stressed out you are. Then there was the challenge of trying to detach myself from the love I was meant to let go of. A mind over matter battle I was so ill equipped to fight. A battle I have to continue to fight in the new year.
Yet even with all that hanging over my head, I had an amazing 3 months. I've met some truly lovely people and had many moments of tearful, side cramping laughter. I started volunteering, something I've always wanted to do. Within 3 months, I've seen 4 cities in the UK. Next year, I plan to be on that train a lot. All over UK and down to Europe. It has always been my dream to travel. One of my worst fears is settling down with a stable job and a family with the dissatisfied ache of knowing I never traveled enough.
I've been told time and time again that I'm still young, but time has never been about age for me. You never know when your time is up, every moment is precious, every moment counts. I'd like to think that, despite all the challenges, I made 2011 count. And I plan to do even better for 2012. Happy new year everybody, have an amazing year ahead.
New Years Resolutions:
1. Average on 1st class for uni
2. Maintain a healthy diet
3. Travel more
4. Volunteer more
5. Read more
6. Write more
7. Be stronger